Welcome to My Mid-Thirties

How about I trade:

• Spontaneous summer beach trips
• Spontaneous creativity
• Painting just because
• Writing children's books just because
• Seeing my family
• Fun outings and social gatherings with a group of local friends
• Having coffee with Trevor at the cafe down the street
• losing 10 pounds by cutting back on alcohol in my diet
  
• Baking for my 80 year old neighbor
• dog fostering with a non-profit rescue
• bouts of localized happiness amid a generalized anxiety about my life

For:

• Looking at the beach as I circle to find parking, wondering how did it get to be mid-July and I still don't have a swimsuit
• Organizing creative cocktail parties during which I hang out and socialize and don't make anything
• Painting only when it has to do with work or donating for an art auction (last-minute)
• Writing Children's books under high-pressure deadlines only when it has to do with work
• Being Auntie-Who? that lives in California and is "different"
• Working blindly until 830 pm on a Saturday and then realizing I was supposed to meet one of two girl friends I have within a 25 mile radius for dinner and she ate already
• Dragging Trevor at break-neck speed down the block 2x a day while texting and downing coffee
• losing ten pounds by completely eliminating sugar, fat, & alcohol from my diet, and running myself ragged on the treadmill
• Buying cupcakes at the bake sale down the street and leaving them in front of my 80 year old neighbor's door, hoping he won't recognize them
• being on the board of a non-profit rescue
• bouts of localized anxiety amid a generalized happiness about my life